I'm have to admit that i'm totally in love with Ciara... Check out her moves!! She's the best!!^^

I know my guardian angel is somewhere near me, but where? And most importantly, who?

"10 more mintues..."

Chemistry, Biology, Physics, History etc. etc... These questions are damn freaking hard!! How in the world can i finish them in just 10 minutes? 10 minutes = 600 seconds, i know that's a lot of time, but still!!

"Alright students, you have 10 minutes more..." Great, i thought to myself, time is up and i still have 2 questions blank, for chemistry... How 'great'!! I'm so gonna fail chemistry... It's the only paper i didn't manage to finish!! I was so desperate on snatching my test paper back from the teacher to finish up those unanswered questions, but what choice do i have? Time is up!!!

What is the use of the calender during the time of Dinasti Shang? and that's one of the History question containing 2 marks... What in the world? Calender? I thought it's for looking at the day or date... What's it used during that ancient time? Cracking my head, yet i still couldn't get the answer!! What am i going to do? Haix~ It's just so yesterday... It's His-Story!!

"Time's up, pens down..." announced the teacher
"Shit!!!" i responded

Oh no, not good, as everyone in the class was staring at me... I didn't know why i responded that way... I should have responded like "What, it's time already?" or "Oh my god!!" but why this? This is so humilating, with all eyes staring at me!!><

Thank god that this is just my first exam... But hopefully i will get to pass all the subjects this time... Sweat~

“Ke Juin…”

I span to look around, for someone was holding my arm…

“Ke Juin, do you still recognize me?”

I looked at her, and by looking at her, I can see how desperate of her wanting me to recognize her, yet I failed to… I couldn’t think of anything at that moment… I tried to recall, but I still didn’t know who she was, not even a vivid memory in my mind… Who is she? I thought to myself… Who?

“I’m sorry,” finally I gave up, “Who are you?”

Still grabbing my arm, “Are you sure you couldn’t recognize me?” she asked…
I glanced at my friend who accompanied me to the restroom, and I can see that she was no longer patient… she wanted to go back to class!!

“No…” shaking my head… and again, I asked, “Who are you?”

Knowing that I had given up on speculating who she was, finally she said “I’m Xue Er, remember? I’m the one living next to Sze Mei, and also your ex classmate!!”

I finally recalled who she was... She was the friend of mine who was in the same uniform body, PBSM as I was… She was the one who taught me about the history of PBSM, how to tie the reef knot, and sat with me most of the time!! She was one of my good friends… How can I forget about her? Oh my god, all the time I thought I would never see her again, and now she’s just right in front of me, right here right now!!

“Xue Er? Is that really you” I asked incredulously, I couldn’t believe my eyes… Really!! She has changed so much!! I remembered that last time she was shorter than me, slightly short and stout… but now she’s about the same height as I am, and slim!! Like Shin Erl [also my ex classmate]… she has grown more beautiful now, so much different from last time… Oh my god, it’s really her!!

“I’ve just transferred to this school a month ago…” she told me, but I wasn’t really listening to what she said, I was too shock… Instinctively I asked “What class are you in now anyway?” and 4L was the answer…

“Alright…” that’s all I could say, and walked away, as my friend was already impatient… very impatient…

Xue Er, it is you… I’ve finally met you again…

KJ, stay strong...

Finally, it was sports day, but i still wasn't feeling really well, still having a bad flu, but i had to go on... I woke up at 5 in the morning, for i had to go to school by 6 for practise marching... This is insanity, i thought to myself, but what other choice do i have? Today is the big day!!

"Awas, masuk baris!!" and as usual, we fall in after our footdrill coordinator had given us the command... I have no inkling why i was chosen to be in the first line, but it was totally fine with me, i think it was because our footdrill coordinator had decided to proceed with the formation we did during practise...

The time had finally arrived, and the marching bagan. I was absent-minded at first, for i kept forgetting to check line, but later on i was excelled in it...^^ Thank god that Pn Joginder and Sze Mei's dad didn't drag their speeches, I know i can do it, i thought to myself... But i was so wrong, so wrong...

I began to feel dizzy, again... So i ended up squatting on the ground. "Stand up, KJ, you can do it!!" My inner voice was trying to give me encouragement, and i stood up... However, i couldn't take the stand, and i squatted down again... Is this all the strength i have? I thought, should i give up? But then, i felt someone was holding my arm... i tried to look, but i couldn't have a clear sight... All i know is that she's one of the first aid team... "Do you want to fall out?" she asked... I didn't know what to do at that time, but instinctively i shook my head...

"She doesn't want to fall out..." I heard one of my seniors said... And so she just gave me a sweet and some oil to apply on... I was touched!! "KJ, your lovely bro and your st john teammates need you... Stand up KJ, stand up now!!" and again, with all my strength, i managed to stand up and proceed till the end of the marching!!^^

I took as much rest as i could after marching, i was so exhausted... "KJ, are you alright?", "KJ, i'm so proud of you... You manage to proceed till the end!!", "Ari, KJ stood up, she has great spirit!" etc.. etc... I was like so proud of myself after hearing what my friends had said... You did it KJ, you did it...

It was time when we had to fall in again, and this time, it would be the final announcement of who will be the champian of the footdrill competition... I was so excited until i heard my friend saying "PBSM is the winner..." I was so disappointed... " Dai ah ko, i'm so sorry... I've done my best but i still couldn't fulfill your dream...", yet i know that somewhere inside of me, i haven't given up yet... I haven't!!

"The winner in the footdrill competition for the year 2009 is.... ST JOHN AMBULANCE!!!!"
What? I can hardly believe my ears!! We've won!! And i began to break down, i was wrong all the time, PBSM winning was just a rumour!! Where had my faith gone to? "Dai ah ko, I've won!!!" I whispered...

St John had won again!! Yeah~ However, the bad news is that we have to represent the school for another footdrill competition... Haix~

"Everyone, thank you KJ for sacrificing so much for st john, she fainted so many times, and yet she stood up... She was the only one who cried when we won, that means she had contributed a lot for st john, so give her a big clap...." I was speechless, it was my fisrt time receiving ovations form my st john teammates... i was appreciated!!^^

"Thank god for everything you have done for me, it's my greatest victory ever... In Jesus' name, Amen!!"

5th of March...
I was on my way back to my classroom and that was when i met my yi ah ko...

"Hey, how are you?" she asked "do you want some sweets?"

She drew out a packet of sweets from her pocket, she asked "why didn't you fall out? Why are you so stubborn?" I made no reply, but from looking at her, i can sense her extreme concern for me... But, what can i say? Tell her that i did this for my lovely bro? Yes, but... How can i put them into words? So i chose to remain silent...

"I'm really sad when you didn't want to fall out..." i was still silent, not knowing what to say... Instead, i took the packet of sweets from her... "thank you, yi ah ko..." and i went back to my classroom...

Well, i didn't really go back to my classroom, instead, i went to a classroom which no students were there, to cool myself down... i clenched my fist to suppress my emotion, but i broke down instead... How can i break my bro's heart? How can i let my bro to be so concerned of me? and if i really did fall out? how can i achieve my dream? Nobody can ever understand me- NOBODY!!

6th of March...
It was the day before sports day, and i was having a cold and fever... Totally suffering!! My yi ah ko saw me and said "Get someone to replace your place...". "NO, i don't want to! i can do it!!!" i interrupted... And that was when she raised her voice to me "Why are you so stubborn??"... I looked away from her, i didn't blame her for doing that, that's because i know that she cares for me... And i know that she's worried for me....

During recess, i was so tired... And that was when my Samko sat right opposite of me...

"Why do you come to school?" she asked
"I didn't tell my mom that i was sicked..."
"You haven't tell me why you strive in marching..."

As usual, i made no reply... Although she's the first person someone i would want to tell my problems to... I just can't tell, can I? Sometimes i'm just wondering, why can't my seniors and my friends give me the support that i need in continuing what i believe in? Am i the kind of person who will do things without any explicable reasons? Why? Why can't i have a lil' support from you guys?><

"St john always no. 1!!"
"Hope u can try yr best n st john get no. 1.^^"
"I miss st john so much"....

I know that winning in the St John footdrill competition is my lovely bro's dream, although she is not studying in this school anymore...

5th of March... It was the day where the briefing is hold, and doing the best I can is my only dream, for it's my lovely bro's dream, and I want to do it for god too!! But, my intuitive feeling forwarned me of an eventuality, and that time i was having a very bad cramp on the lower part of my stomach...

"Ask someone to replace you, sice you are feeling unwell..." suggestion one of my friends
"No, i have to do this to acheive my dream... and i'm fine, don't worry about me, thanks..." i replied with a smile...

"St John, fall in!!" and we all did as we were told... "god, help me to get through this..." i prayed, and everything was going great, till we were in the middle of the field... I was soaked with sweat as the blazing sun was on us, and all of a sudden my sight was blur, sweat kept flowing from my forehead, and then, i just went blacked out...><

I had Hobson's choice but to squat down, but i haven't had the thought of giving up yet... My seniors were very worried of me... "KJ, are you alright?", "Where are the first aid team? what's taking them so long?", "KJ, sit down now!!"....

I almost gave up at that time, until there was an inner voice in me, saying "KJ, you promise yourself that you want to do your best for your lovely bro and for you Father Lord... Where have your words gone to? If you give up now, you wouldn't have any satisfaction... KJ, stand up now! It's now or never!!" And i felt an entirely new strength in me, giving me strength to stand up... "thank god" i prayed... And when the arrival of the first aidteam, they tried to convinve me to fall out...

"KJ, fall out now!"
"No, i can do this!!" i asserted
Holding my arm, "KJ, listen to me... don't force yourself, fall out now!!"
"Let go of me, i can do this!!" i asserted even more...

And that was how i remained in the team... i was given some sweets and a mouth full of water to refresh myslef, and i felt good!! And i did great during the second briefing... I did it!!^^ After the entire briefing was over, i was totally exhausted!! I felt like collapsing, but i forced myslef not to... Well, all i can do now is to pray for the on sports day...

"Push.. Push harder...."><

Oh my god, what a day!! Imagine 2 young girls pushing a 4 X 4 Jeep Wrangler car in the middle of the road bare-footed, causing traffic jam, although it was just around the neighbourhood... And that 2 young girls would be my sister and of course, me...><

The plausiblity to say that the road had absorbed heat from the sun-drenched afternoon, it must be! That's because it was burning hot, till i almost get blisters beneath my foot!! I felt really good to walk on the road bare-footed at first, but after a while i couldn't take the heat, not even my sis could... "Ching, look over there!! Tiles!! " and the both of us ran onto the tiles to cool our feet, but that didn't work either...

"What now?" asked my sis...
"What else? Run home!!!" and that was the only answer i could think of...

And so the both of us ran home as fast as possible, and my neighbours, Chung Mae and her family, were staring at the both of us... Lol>< After we washed our feet with water, we wore our slippers back to the Jeep Wrangler but this time, we sat in our dad's another 4 X 4 car [storm]... Smart, right?

My dad drew out some kind of wire used for jumpstarting the car... And this was the fun part, after my dad had connected both his 4 X 4 vehicles with that wire thingy, i was in-charged on stepping on the accelerator to transmit "energy" from the Storm to the Jeep Wrangler... "Step on it!!"... And within a minute, the car engine was able to restart!! "thank god... "

Well, what can i say? It was a really good experience... Really!!^^