Rue's Lullaby  

Posted by Ker Jean




This song makes me want to cry every time I listen 2 it... Wonderful song=]

I'll miss you, Rue><

Don't....  

Posted by Ker Jean

Don't talk to me
Don't walk me
Don't call me
Don't accompany me
Don't impress me
Don't follow me
Don't wait for me
Don't flirt with me
Don't sit with me
Don't look at me
Don't laugh with me
Don't play with me
Don't please me
Don't miss me
Don't kiss me
Don't love me......

But whatever you do,
Don't leave me XD

Hidden Talent  

Posted by Ker Jean

Drawing used to be my hobby, and I could spend for hours drawing especially during the holidays. However, this hobby of mine doesn't stay long ever since I'm in my secondary life. I have no inkling why, and it seems like it has been years I didn't really sit down with a piece of clean white paper in front of me, ready to be drawn on, that I forget that I have this talent in me. Until one day when I began searching for all the drawings I'd drawn, I began to say to myself: Hey, I'm good in this!! XD


My coolest drawing=]

Sketching...

Drawn during primary XD

My Friend  

Posted by Ker Jean


I wonder when exactly was the last time you call... Hmm.... Like more or less a year?? I don't know, somehow it seemed so long that I thought you would call no more, until that night...

"Hello," a familiar sound echoed out from the opposite line, and immediately I knew it was him...

I think I responded with an incoherent "Hi" if I was not mistaken, for I was quite shocked of him calling me at a time like this [almost midnight], and I have to acknowledge it. His voice, still the same as ever-- ever so childish...

We began to talk about school's life, but mostly about the good old days when we spent most of the time hanging out together... We were young, naive, and immature, so we don't really bother about what people think about us, and also regardless our genders... We just had fun, and they were simply memorable... And as we talked about it, I believe that we both were amazed that none of us forget a single detail about it...

Somehow, I hope to meet you again, Chee Hoe... I really hope we would=]

p.s. we are just super close friends since primary... So don't think the other sideXD

My Coach  

Posted by Ker Jean

Can't believe I got the chance to hang out with my archery coach again, and I really enjoy it... Love it when we play archery together, and he coaches me along the way=]


Awesome, huh?

That's how he aims for the bull's eye XD

Oh ya, and he's my rock climbing coach too, well sort of=]


Then after all these coaching, we would have dinner together, and he would introduce his friends to me... All of his friends thought we were couple, and we were like ==!!!

My dad kind of protest that I would rather spend my time with him than shopping when I get the chance to go to Genting... Yes, my coach smokes, *coughs*... But as long as I know what I'm doing, there's nothing to worry about, right? Why can't he understand that I'm just trying to learn something [archery] that I like, and after all, the coaching is free... So why not? Sometimes I just wished that my dad could break away from his stubbornness... Urrggghhhh><

The Red Pyramid  

Posted by Ker Jean


Well, now that exam's over... I could start off reading my new book, "The Red Pyramid" by Rick Riordan...

Well basically, this book is about Egypt, its gods and goddess, hieroglyphs, tombs, mummies etc etc... And of course, more hieroglyphs XD

It's a very good book I have to admit, as it teaches me lots of things regarding Egyptian stuff kind of thingy... Especially what we have learned in History like Augustus Caesar, Ra [the god of sun] etc.. etc... But a little comparison, I would still prefer the Percy Jackson series, and the Greek Gods like Zeus, Poseidon and Hades...

My parents began to notice that I like these kind of books, and in books that have something to do with Gods and Goddess, and so they begin to talk crap and start on with the lectures... They told me to read on about the China Gods, something like that, and I was like HELL NO!! There's is no way I'mma read those.... Never mind, forget about it><

Anyway, I seriosly can't wait to finish reading this book=]

Like Kindergarden  

Posted by Ker Jean

My current class, 5B gave me a sudden feel that I'm still in kindergarden... "Animal-SS" popped out from nowhere, just like a zoo... So, there they are XD

We have....

Yang Jin ~ Anjing [dog]

Chee Kit ~ Meow meow XD

etc etc...


and....


Me~ Bobby the dog==
ps. [ignore my face, I look childish I know... Christine made me do it><]

So you sit there and wonder... Is 5B a secondary class, or a total kindergarden?? What do you think?? XD

Sweet Memo  

Posted by Ker Jean

Yes, I can still remember the way you ran towards me, smiling as you called my name, and in a minute's time you were in my arm. You were quite heavy for a little girl, yet I still make an effort to carry you. You giggled as I lifted you up from the ground, accentuating your tiny dimples, and hugged me even harder that I could almost hardly breathe. Your eyes shone like sapphire's eyes under the sunlight, and your laugh is infectious. Everyone there was like saying we were long lost sisters, and I pretended not to listen, but I was smiling from the inside.

Days seemed like minutes, and my smile melted away when it was time to say goodbye, yet you still clung tight onto me, not wanting to let go. I too, feel the same, yet I don't have a choice, do I? I need to let go. It is indeed that we'll soon meet again, but you will grow up to be a wonderful girl you will be, and as a matter of time I'll be forgotten. We may not be that close anymore, but there's one thing I know, that I'll never forget about you, and I will always wait to meet you again.

He's with me  

Posted by Ker Jean

Yes, yes, I know... I know it's totally wrong for me to lie 2 my mom, saying that I'll be going to play badminton instead of going to church, especially when today is Mother's Day... I know, and I'm sorry... But I had to><

Actually, I kind of felt guilty about lying to my mom, so I text my pastor [PV] to ask her if I should be doing this, but she did not give any specific answer, and told me to keep loving Him... I cried at that time for it was uber-hard for me. I mean, I'm forced to lie, but somehow I could feel that the answer is YES, and so I went.

This church that I went is not the church I used to go, and this church is way bigger. Another problem for me is that this church emphasis more on Mandarin, and for your information, I'm terribly weak in this language, though I'm supposed to master it by now for I was a SJK student. Sometimes I just wondered if i really belong to the SJK students. Anyway, then there I was, like a total lost sheep among a crowd of people. But at least I managed to utter an incoherent 'hi' with them. You know, to get along... Something like that.

Frankly speaking, I really felt out of place at that time, especially when I couldn't understand a single word they say. I actually thought of leaving my seat and run away from this stranger place, but instead, I prayed.

Amazingly, my hands began to burn, and immediately I knew it. It's the Holy Spirit!! I knew it for I felt it a couple of times before. One of the time was when my pastor prayed for me. The feel of the burning sensation is not like a fire devouring a building, but a feel of knowing that God is with me. He is with me!!

Everything then began to go on smoothly. And I realise that it is not about the people in the church, nor me... It's about Him, my Dad, who is always there by my side and would never abandon nor forsake me, even if the world does=]

He is my closest friend. My teacher. My counselor. My dad. My life...

Dog  

Posted by Ker Jean

1st time in my entire life
I get to know this so-called "high class" dog
That only eats chocolate
Instead of dog biscuit
But get sick in the end anyway.
It would online instead of zzz
And do homework instead of barking...
So "high class"!!
I think IT should know who I'm referring to
Right, dog??

Thinking of BBQ hot dog now...

BBQ dog + cheese + blackpepper

Damn Delicious XD

Change  

Posted by Ker Jean

Nothing is mend to last
Nor to be mend forever
Even the best of friend you may have
It may seem cruel
And hearts may shatter
But this is part of God's way
To strengthen and teach us
To appreciate people or things around us
Before they are all gone...

The world does not change it shape
And the sun does not lose its brightness
It's us that change
That cause us to break apart from our loved ones
This is happening
It's imminent, inevitable!
But still
I hate it when people say:
People change
Because it's like
A dagger slashing across my heart
Leaving it to bleed...

This is life,
You can't choose how you want your life to be
Nor you can change it
And you will never know what is going to happen
Only the Lord of the world does
Or you may call it luck
Whatever it is
It's all the same
Our life is destined!!

Please,
Do treasure everyone around you
Start from this very minute
Before they all change
Perhaps yourself
Because
People change...

Depress  

Posted by Ker Jean

Sometimes I wonder
If my friends are taking advantages of me
I experienced it a couple of times in the past
And it's killing me inside
I thought they were history
But were they??

Every little thing pissed me off recently
And I don't know why
I got lectured by my teachers, my parents
For the things I don't deserve
My dad has some financial problems he didn't want to share
That he doesn't want to buy a schoolbag for me
My mom talks crap
My teacher deduct my e-discipline mark for skipping class
I hate my life, alright??
It pissed me off!!

I'm sad
But who can see through me??
I just wondered...

Picture Time  

Posted by Ker Jean

5B group photo with ZON TUNDA=]

Another Group Photo

Shion and I=]

We Girls XD

Learning hard><

Fabio=]

Professor Yap XD

Lookin' cool??

.....

Committing suicide...

???

Genting trip  

Posted by Ker Jean

I really had fun in Genting with 14 of my classmates
And it was an awesome trip
Though I only had chips for breakfast
Cup noodles and oreo biscuits for lunch and dinner
I was BROKE!!

Song Yuan and I played archery
While the others went for a walk
And I had to admit that he was pretty good
I guess I had found myself a competitor
I also had found out that my skill had again leveled up
Shot some bull's eyes
Awesome=]

Went for the FLYING COASTER
Damn high,
And it had me feelin' like I was about to jump off a building
Like committing suicide
The fun part was that
Everyone was like, "shit, shit, SHIT!!"
And then we go AAAHHHHHHHH!!!

That night was awesome
Slept at 2am on that day
And woke up at 6.30am
I was the earliest to sleep
The rest slept at 4 or 5 in the morning
Playing cards
Fabian got rape and screamed like a girl
As usual
And I witness it all
But don't think something else, okay??

Watched the movie Alice in Wonderland
Though it was not in 3D
Hate the despicable and ugly red queen
But like the eat me, drink me and eat me again part=]

Dawn was even better
For it was time for my evil-genius plan
I sneaked out my room
And went to Jia Hui's room
I knew they were still sleeping
They all were!!
"Ding Dong", I pressed the doorbell
And ran like hell
They fell for it
"Ding dong," another time pressing the doorbell
This time, no more running away
Instead, I charged into their room the minute they opened the door
And that time was their greatest NIGHTMARE

Jia Hui's biggest mistake was to open the door for me
And as the result she ended up couldn't sleep
For I was really annoying at that time
I turned on the lights and curtains
Remove her pillow and blanket
So annoyed until she went totally insane
And she amused me
It was so fun!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA [evil laugh]

Lim Chee, that dog [just joking]
Told me some horror story
And it freaked me out
Hope I would not get any nightmare tonight><

It was really an awesome trip
And I'm sorry for those who did not go
They really miss the fun
As for my primary gathering
I heard someone said it was awesome too
But I guess this is God's plan for me
Thanks Lord,
Thanks for all the great time and fun
Amen.

I didn't know  

Posted by Ker Jean

I did not know
That I drew an art for my friend.
And she is still keeping it in her drawer.
As a remembrance of our friendship=]

I did not know
That majority of my primary friends are taking a part time job
School in the morning, work at night.
Why do they have to work?
What about their studies?
I dare not ask...

I did not know
That everyone has changes
Their looks, their behaviour
They changes so much until I couldn't recognize them
Until they tell me who they are.
And I was like: It's you??!

I did not know
How much I miss my primary friends
But now I do
I do miss them-- A lot
Not even a thousand words could describe them

........

Kidz  

Posted by Ker Jean

I can't help it but to keep smiling to myself whenever there's kids around me.
The world to them seemed like fantasy more than reality
They are curious about what they see,
And innocent...

"Hello," said a kid, smiling as I half-way was doing my homework.

I don't understand why it's always kids that took their first step to approach me. Kids like 6years old and above, or younger. Theoretically, it should be the other way round, as in I should be the one going to them, say hi, and have a lil' conversation, or have fun. Never had I would expect them to do something that most of the contemporary teens would fear. And the great thing is that they are fun to play with, and would never take things seriously. I can't believe that I'm actually saying this but, lil' kids like them taught me something valuable. Something that I would remember for the rest of my life.

Kids I've met these day,
I salute them...

Janet Lee  

Posted by Ker Jean


After all the days and fun we had been through together, and every moment of our friendship is still vivid in my memory...
It has been 5 years... 5 years, and yet I am still searching for you, waiting for the day to meet you again. And now though I manage to find your contact in fb, I'm very much contented. Really!><
You may have the closest friend you ever have in your life, but I just want you to know that you are and will always be a special friend to me=]

My Story  

Posted by Ker Jean

All eyes were on me, but none of them was kind enough to lend me a helping hand. My knee was seriously injured after the fall, and part of my jeans was worn out. Blood was oozing out profusely from the wound, and the burning sensation was almost unbearable that I thought I was going to cry. Abruptly, a young man came forward and kneed beside of me. He was rather tall, and was in his orange collared T-shirt, matching his jeans pants. Instinctively, he slipped his hand into his pocket, drew out a clean handkerchief and compressed it on the wound to control the bleeding. Then, he did something out of expectation. He stripped off his clothes as if showing off his muscular body and used it to bandage my wound. I had to admit that he was excelled in it.1

"There you go," he said, tying the last knot, smiling. Our eyes met, and that was when our relationship started.


Pls feel free to comment. I'm trying to get all the comments I can get. Thanks=]

Skulduggery Pleasant  

Posted by Ker Jean


Currently reading the second series of "Skulduggery Pleasant", and it's all about a skeleton detective named Skulduggery Pleasant... Yea, I have to admit that I like detective storybooks like Sherlock Holmes, and storybooks with lots of actions in it... Unfortunately I don't have much time on reading right now, but I will still make time for it somehow=]