This time, I'm serious... No more procrastination-- NO MORE!!! And here's what I plan to do...

Learn skateboarding
~ I tried in the past and I ended up bruises all over my knees, so I gave up... But this time, I'mma buy myself skate protection gears which include a skateboarding helmet, a pair of wrist guards, elbow pads, knee pads and gloves at the Cool Element Skate Shop in Bukit Bintang... Of course, and also a skateboard=]

Take up a part time job in the archery section
~ Well, I should have been earning money by now if it wasn't for my parents' disapproval... Perhaps after SPM, hopefullt my parents would let me and I'mma go for it for a month... My objective: Get experience, practice with my aiming, learn and teach at the same time... So cool=]

Well, let's just hope that everything will turn out smoothly... Otherwise I would have to change plans... And I hate doin' that><

My sis and I hanged out at my neighbour's house on the day be4 X'mas eve til' 3am... We played speed racing at Wii and it was damn shock!! Lovin' it=]

"Jac, that pink colour car just knocked my car!!" I said, "and the driver is a lady weh..."
"Same here... It just bang me><"
"Yerr... Nvm, pay back time!!"
"Yea, aim at the pink car..."
"No, lock target 1st..."
" Kk, then only we jump on that car..."
"Har?" both my sis and I were stunned, "Jump? How??"
"Like that" [Jac demonstrates with the Wii remote control]
"oO..."
"Ke ke jie jie, I saw that pink car... I'll bang it..." [Bang the car]
"Dude, it's red, and that's my car!!" I said [sweat~]
"Oops, sorry..."

Lesson learnt~ Never ever choose pink racing cars=]

Found cheat codes via internet
~ Unlimited boost
~ Super speed
~Moon gravity

Gonna play it again... Speed Racer=]

Annabeth Chase~ Wow, she's not like what I'd expected... A lil' old' but, she is and will always be my most favourite character...

Apollo~ A god of light and truth indeed... Quite good looking=]

Aprodhite~ One word, beautiful!! Suite you for being the god of love=]

Athena~ Erm, just an opinion... You should kind of switch role as Medusa><

Luke~ I thought Luke's supposed to be evil looking??


Erm, that's all I can comment... I seriously can't wait for the movie to be on screen on the 12th of Feb 2010... Totally in love with it=]

I wonder since when I get so into Greek Gods? Perhaps it's ever since I read the 4 series storybooks of Percy Jackson... The 1st book, which is Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief will be a motion movie in 12th of Feb 2010... Damn awesome!=]

Aphrodite
Goddess of love, lust, beauty, wife of Hephaestus. Ares is her lover. Eros is her son. Known as the most beautiful of the Greek goddesses. Her symbols are the scepter, myrtle, and dove.

Apollo
God of music, medicine, health, prophecies, poetry, and archery. Also said to be the god of light and truth. Is associated with the sun. Also referred to as the most handsome of the gods. He is Artemis's twin brother, and son of Zeus. His symbols are the bow, lyre, and laurel.

Ares
God of war, murder and bloodshed. Brother to Athena, and is the son of Zeus. Has an affair with Aphrodite. His symbols are vultures, dogs, boars, and a spear.

Artemis
Goddess of the hunt, wild things, and the moon. Protector of the dewy young. She became associated with the moon. Apollo is her twin brother. Artemis is a virgin goddess. Her symbols are the bow, dogs, and deer.

Athena
Goddess of wisdom, warfare, strategy, handicrafts and reason. Sister of Ares, and is the daughter of Zeus. Sprung from Zeus's head in full body armor. She is the wisest of the gods. Her symbols are the aegis, owl, and olive tree.

Demeter
Goddess of fertility, agriculture, grain and harvest. Demeter is a daughter of Cronus and Rhea and sister of Zeus. Her symbols are the scepter, torch, and corn.

Dionysus
God of wine, parties/festivals, madness and merriment. He represents not only the intoxicating power of wine, but also its social and beneficial influences. His symbols are the grape vine, ivy, and thyrsus.

Hades
God of the underworld and wealth. Brother of Poseidon, Zeus and Hera, and consort to Persephone. His symbols are the bident, the Helm of Darkness, and the three-headed dog, Cerberus.

Hephaestus
God of fire and the forge (god of fire and smiths) with very weak legs. He was thrown off Mount Olympus as a baby by his mother and in some stories his father. He makes armor for the gods and other heroes like Achilles. Son of Hera and Zeus is his father in some accounts. Married to Aphrodite, but she does not love him because he is deformed and, as a result, is cheating on him with Ares. He had a daughter named Pandora. His symbols are an axe, a hammer and a flame.

Hera
Goddess of marriage, women, and childbirth. Zeus' wife and sister. Appears with peacock feathers often. Her symbols are the scepter, diadem, and peacock.

Hermes
God of flight, thieves, mischief, commerce, and travelers. Messenger of the gods. He showed the way for the dead souls to Hades's realm. He shows up in more myths than any other god or goddess. Likes to trick people and is very inventive. Hermes invented the lyre using a turtle shell and sinew. His symbols are the caduceus and winged boots.

Hestia
Goddess of the hearth and home, the focal point of every household. Daughter of Rhea and Cronus. Gave up her seat as one of the Twelve Olympians to tend to the sacred flame on Mount Olympus for Dionysus. Her symbol is the hearth.

Poseidon
God of the sea. He created horses from sea foam. God of earthquakes as well. Also called 'Earth Shaker' and 'Storm Bringer'. His symbols are horses, sea foam, dolphins, and a trident.

Zeus
The king of the gods, the ruler of Mount Olympus and the god of the sky and thunder. His symbols are the thunderbolt, eagle, bull, and oak.

5th Nov 2009, Thurs

"Wow, time flies... I'm 16 today!!"

What a great sweet 16 I have this year... Receiving some text from Wendy and Abee during midnight when I was about to doze off... Receiving wishes and presents from my friends, and getting satisfied result... I mean, 80 marks for History? Boy, it's like the best thing that ever happen in my entire life!!=]

One thing that spoil my mood today is that damn ol' idiotic Pn Siti Liah... I almost get caught by her for being in 4A... That I don't blame her, but scolding my teacher in front of the whole class?? That's just @*&^%#$*% etc. etc.. etc... She's a dude, a total D-U-D-E!!!><

Well, I guess this is it for the day... My sweet 16=]

p.s. can't wait til this Saturday as my mom's gonna take me out for my birthday dinner at the curve... Yeah~

30th October 2009
9.30 ~ 11.30
Friday

Our [Kelly, Abee, and I] plan, is to play badminton right after the day our exam has finished... So, here's some pic=]

Incoming!!><

Can you spot me or Kelly?

Smash that birdie, Kel=]

2 vs 1... But where's Kel?

Wow, since when we grow that long?><

My heart thudded with an accelerate pace...
For the fear of collecting my results
Is killin' me...
I have no guts to see my result
That is going to lay before my very own eyes...
With no intention, no hope,
That I dashed out of the classroom
Without the teacher's consent...><

Exam's over
And I'm glad
No more dragging myself up from bed
With the alarm clock beside of my bed
No more hypnosis downloads,
No more cheese and raisins for breakfast
That makes me feel nausea,
No more meditation,
And no more criticism from my mom
Who has no inkling of what I'm doing...
No more...
For all those has finally ended><

It's a totally new way of studying
That need no brain juice for memorising stuff
But just a deep relaxation
By just a few deep breaths,
And some hard work, and a lil' prayer...
But the fear still dwells in me
For I fear that this new way of studying ain't gonna work,
Ain't gonna help...
Now all I can do now is wait,
For the final results...

31st October 2009, Sat

Hey everybody, it's Halloween day!! So what are you waiting for? Let's dress up, make up and go trick-or-treat!! Whoo~hoo=]

p.s. Sleep tight tonight and don't get nightmares...

17th October 2009

Uncle John has trapped a lil' creature near his house
For stealing his fruits...
But I don't know why
My dad brought it home
So that's how I got a new pet, a 'musang'
And I named it Muusz Muusz
I know, SWEAT~~

It kind of look like a rat,
A cat, a squirrel??
It consumes fruits
But Uncle John says he can live with dog biscuit,
And cat food... [are you aure, Uncle John?]
It's like the most adorable lil' creature ever!!
But my mom said it's ugly
Excuse me, mom
That's just so insulting...><

Hey lil' fellow,
Welcome to your new home...
Don't be scared,
Everything will be alright
And don't cry for losing your mom...
I promise I'll take good care of you, ok?

Get up - Ciara
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHLNIdZrVCc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWVCKIb-IGI

Celebration - Madonna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3wCky69JHSU

Takin' Back My Love - Enrique Iglesias feat Ciara
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzwr5LEKT18

Be with you - Enrique Iglesias
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q12_DLlYCgw

Be With You - Akon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UELFfcfr32M

Sugar - Florida
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSeZqEezu_Q

RNB HearMyMusic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eGyD4lAIHNs

I Hate This Party - The Pussycat Dolls
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sU41-5i3EQ

All I Ever Wanted - Basshunter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3CxhBIrBho

I've Got A Feeling - Black Eyed Peas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOHGOwbnvTk

Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIs4u_ekrao

Hating On The Club - Rihanna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xuaNnM1bh8A

The Way I Are - Timbaland
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWg3IMN_rhU

Finally, I'm home...

It has been so long that I'm desperate to go Home... How I'm glad to meet Pastor Vinnie and all my friends again... Sometimes I would think if this will be my last seeing them...

All the worries and troubles in my mind accumulating, how I wish I could just get rid of them... Getting permission from an anti-christian to go to church, parents nagging about how bad christianity is for half an hour... Urrgghhhhh~><

"Transport, I need transport...", or "To lie or not to lie?", or "I need a brilliant plan...", or "Can you please help me to get permission from my mom?" etc. etc. etc... All these thought that I have to put into consideration before getting permission from my parents are killing me!! I'm just so sick about it that I burst into tears in the church... Why can't I be like other christians who can go to church whenever they want to? Why must I go through so many 'obstacles' [my parents] before going to church? Why??

Anyway, all thanks to my brother for helping me to go to church, well kind of, otherwise I would not get the chance to go Home, would I?

Nightmare etches in my mind
So deeply that I suffer from insomnia
Need almonds with milk?
Don't think that would help either...

Our friendship has ended
Because you force me to
And my stubborn character
Which I could not deny
Now what, genius?
Apologise?

The past has repeated itself
During my time of unawareness
Until I realise, everything's too late
Too late!!><

My friends,
NEVER ever break your friendship
Or you will be like me
Nothing but regret...
We have 1 more year before graduation
So why not bear the pain??

For heaven sake, I'm a human, I need to survive... Can't I have this book by now? Why must it always be out of stock?? Gosh><

How to SURVIVE anything, ANYWHERE... This is a totally amazing book and it can definitely come in handy for people like me who could hardly survive in outdoors... It's a MUST-READ-BOOK!!><

Haix~ Perhaps I might be able to get it after my final exam, who knows?? Patient, Ker Jean, you will survive somehow...

LYRIC
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus=]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat chorus]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat chorus (3x)]

Hang out at:-
Perhaps in Abee's house [just for the ps2]... HAHA~
Genting?? [not sure]
Window shopping [maybe]

At home:-
Read on brainpower newsletter
Online
Sleep

Think of:-
Hanging out with friends...
Making french toast=]
Taking a part time job [impossible
Shoot some arrows??
Watch cinema movie
Playing ps2 [Tony Hawk's Proving Ground]=]

Getting addicted to Tony Hawk's skateboarding games... I know I could never learn to skate, despite trying once, twice, thrice, until I get myself bruises... 1stly is that there's no appropriate place 4 me to skate, and 2ndly, it's not an easy sports... That's why I choose to play skateboarding via PS2... HAHA=]

Trying to get the hang with the L3 and R3... But both my analog ain't functioning!!><

My best game ever... Gettin' pro in this game=]

Abeenayah + Fragility = Fragile Bee = Frage

Kelly Ho = Callie = Calleigh

Ke Juin = Ker Jean = Jean/ Jeans = Billie Jean

FAITH,
It's something stronger than love,
Stonger than prayer,
Stronger than anything else...
But, where have mine been to?
I don't know...
C'mon Ker Jean,
Retrieve the faith you used to have...
Pray, pray harder!!
I know you can do it!!><

It had been 3 years I didn't see her... 3 years...

This is so not happening, I thought to myself... I'm, actually meeting her again... She still looks the same as the time during primary... Her voice, her smile are still so sweet that nothing could possibly compare to hers... I'm so totally glad to see her!! Really=]

But there was one thing I could not understand was that she didn't behave like she used to, perhaps because she respects me as a friend... She told me she feared that I would speak English in which she could not comprehend, and feared that we might be in a no talking term... She feared that I would be bored with some of her friends hanging out together with, and judging by her look, I can see that she was trying the best she can to keep me companied... But why? Why did she have to do all this for me? Didn't she know that it makes me depressed??

"Anyway, whatever changes you are going through, we will still be friends, close friends... It's a promise we make during primary, don't you remember?"

"Apek sudah berhenti..."

Whaatt?? My coach has resigned from his work? How can this be possible? This is so not happening... There are so much more that I haven't learnt from him, and now he... Haix~ How can this happen to me? Why?? I'm going to lose another good friend??

To my coach:
Thanks Apek, for coaching me on archery, and even rock climbing... These are the experiences not all people would have the chance to experience... You are the one who influences me to take up interest in archery, to be brave, to be more sporting... You told me that you would teach me how to play snooker the next time we meet... But I guess I wouldn't get the chance to learn from you anymore, would I?

We get to know each other in a very unique way, and I wouldn't forget that day... You introduced me to all your friends, and gave me a collection of arrows... We played bowling and had supper together after work... I'm really going to miss those days><

I don't know if we will have the chance to meet again... But I'll continue to practice on my aiming, which is my weakness... I will take a part time job in the archery section during the year end holiday and I know I'll soon be a pro after some intense training... I will be like you someday, Apek, and this I promise you...

"I would never want the past to repeat itself" I promised myself... Perhaps I was over confident, too confident that I did not realize that it happened again...

The incidence took place like centuries ago, but it entrenched in my mind so firmly that I could hardly forget about it... Even if I managed to, it wouldn't let the go of me... It just hurt so badly that I would not want to mention about it... I thought time could heal everything, but I guess not...

I'd experienced so much that not all people would have the opportunity to experience... I'd seen so much that you could possibly imagine... I'd learned so much that are apart from the school syllabus that helped me boost self- confident... But, if I could turn back time, I would let everything go... Cuz, I'd lose a friend><

Sometimes, it's better to remain as friends than being partner... But I took the wrong path being one of her team members... Disagreement occured, and in the end I hurt that friend of mine so badly that she cried quite a number of times [from what my friends had told me]... I broke the bridge that tied our friendship together, leaving a massive gap, and I allowed my emotions to take control over me... This should not be happening, but I guess it's too late to change now, is it?

I know I'm never a good bro... I never am!! Although it has been a year hanging out with you, I still don't know when your birthday is, and even if I do, I don't know what to get you for your birthday!! I don't know what are the things you like and what are the things you don't... I don't know what to write when I am given a birthday card to write on... I'm such a pathetic, I know... How I wish I could just turn back time to get to know you better, if only I could have the chance... But I guess everything is too late now... Sorry dai ah ko~ FORGIVE ME><

Pik Yin: I'm sorry, KJ...
KJ: Huh? Why r u sorry?
Pik Yin: I know how u've suffered... And I'm sorry that I didn't go for the Camp Intergration with u...
KJ: ...
Pik Yin: I should've gone with you, to suffer together...

To all readers:

It was a Sunday morning when my family and I departed to Sg Bil for a one day trip camp with the convoy team...

"My good sister who I bully..." said Nicole, and she gave me a hug... Awwww, how sweet~ so I piggy back her and that was when Tasha ran towards me... Both wanted me to piggy back them, and how I wish I was strong enough to carry them both...

We had a wonderful time havin' fun in the river... I spent most of the time carrying Tasha in the river... Rocks became slides, and I was the ladder for them to climb onto the rocks... I injured my hand when I was givin' Nicole a push, but I had to admit that the cut was indeed memorable=]

I don't mind being pushed into the river out of the blue, punched, pinched etc. etc, because they make my day filled with joy and laughter... And, I realise that I really do miss them after the trip to phuket... Believe it or not, but, really!!

31st~ 4th of June

Travelled 18 hours to reach Phuket
Tiring><
But the BBQ dinner was awesome!!
Lovin' it=]

Went snorkelling in XXX island n Monkey island...
Almost die in the sea of Monkey island
Muscle cramped while swimming n snorkelling ashore... S.O.S><
Being rescued
Kind of embarrasing, but I get to ride a conoe!!

Visited a few islands on a ferry,
Majority of the alpha teams had sea-sicked...
Some vomitted...
Eewwww~
But I slept at the back the ferry
Nothing happened to me, til I reached back to Kris Hotel
Havin' after effect><

Went shooting...
It was like takin' a candy from a baby
Holding a long gun
Aim and shoot
I score 80% for 10 shots!!
How awesome is that=]

Being bullied by Natalie,
A devil with a fork><
Babysitted Nicole, but mostly Natasha
"I want piggy back race~"
So I have to piggyback Tasha
My sis piggyback Nicole
And the race began...

Tasha's toe was injured,
Bleeding so profusely that she cried><
But she stopped weeping when she saw me
And pulled me close to her
She wants me...
Awwww~
Nicole cheered her up by buying ice-cream for her
And she shared it with me
After her toe was bandaged, I carried her to Uncle Christine's car=]

Went to watch Simon Cabaret,
Most of the aqua are so beautiful
That I didn't believe they were men><
Really!!

What can I say, it's an amazing trip=]

Uncle Christine aka Alpha Bravo... Nice post!!=]

Uncle Daniel aka Alpha Delta... Looking cool??><

My Dad aka Alpha Romeo... Hey dad, havin' sea sicked??><

Natasha and Nicole... They look so cute and innocent...><

Hey Nicole, smile=]

Natasha/Tasha and I =]

Natalie, I wonder where your evil smile has gone to??><

Well of course, that's not all of the alpha members... There's a lot more but... Anyway, that's all for the Alpha Team... No issue~ Haha~

"I rather quit the competition than trusting you..."
"I'm 40 yrs old, and not all moms would want to take this opportunity in taking part in this race..."
"We have to take the risk..."
"My sixth sense told me not to trust them, so don't!! They are trying to trick us..."
"Life is too short..."
"Just chill, alright? And I'm sorry, Pam, I know I'm a stupid driver..."
"Adrain has proved to himself that nothing is impossible, even being a handicap is just a thought..."
"Don't you get it? If we were to be eliminated just because I can't drive this stupid car, the only person who's going to kill me, is myself!!"
etc. etc...

I've learned so much just by watching this amazing race... I've learned so much about friendships, strategies etc.. etc... It's really worth watching~ It was pretty depressing that Natalie and Paula got eliminated, I like them... Anyway, congrats to Adrain and Collin for being the champ, Pamela and Vanessa for being the second, and Marc and Rovilson for being the third...^^ Amazing Race Rocks!!

I don't know why... It's never good being the 1st as what I'd ever imagined...

"I haven't studied..." I told my friends
"Yeah, right... Talk to the HANDS!!!" my friends responded in unison...

It's always the case, and I hate it... And guess what? The worse is yet to come, and that's when I'll be getting back my results with all the red ink... I know it, I know that I did really really bad this time... I made tons of tons of mistakes, and that contains about 20 marks... That's because you just can't have one of them wrong otherwise the entire section will go wrong, and that's my mistake! And i didn't make mistake for one particular paper, instead, I made mistake for every paper!!!><

I hate my mom when it comes to announcing my result... Her expectation is higher ever since I got the 1st position in my class... I hate it!! I just want to do my best and compete with myself, not A class's students... I'm not the nerdy nerd type, FYI, I'm not!!

I'm so tired of making mistakes, losing marks, getting nag by my mom... I just can't take it anymore!! It's all my fault of not surrendering them to God at the 1st place... I just don't have the faith to believe that I'll do well in my next paper... I don't have confidence in myself anymore, and I wonder where have they gone to? I need them back.... Father, I surrender... I need You~

English Paper 1
Section B- Continuous Writing
Title : Begin your story with, "I was not sure why, but she stopped talking to me..."

"I was not sure why, but she stopped talking to me..."

I'm Seth and I'm a college student. My ritual routine was dreading my feet back home from school under the sun-drenched afternoon to take care of my little brother. Everything seemed never the Garden of Eden ever since my parents had abandoned us for no explicable reason, and I was raged with anger for their selfishness. However, everything seemed to turn different since the day I met her, Janet...

"I'd like to hear you play," I volunteered.
"It's settled then," she said as she pushed herself towards the piano, pulling me along with her and I was sat on the bench beside of her. She gave me a warm smile, accentuating her tiny dimples before turning to the keyboard, and started playing. The rhythm and melody of the music went with the flow as she her hand swiftly playing the piano. I was totally inspired by the music that it was incredulously unbelievable that it was only played with a set of hand. After she had finished playing, she will teach me some of the notes, and that was how we spents our days together. Little did I know that these days would not last, and little did I know that this will be my last time listening to the music played by the most wonderful girl in the entire world, until...

It was a late midnight when I trudged into my room and collapsed on my bed. Rain fell like tiny fingers tapping on the windowpane. I stared at the celling, with my head resting on my pillow, feeling bored. Abruptly, my mobile phone buzzed and I instinctively reached for it. It was from Janet! I was so delighted that she would call at a moment when I almost get bored to death.

"Hey, Janet" I called as I answered the call.
"W-why Seth," She sobbed, "Why are you doing this to me? I thought you were my friend?"
"What do you mean?" I asked, feeling confused, "What happened?"
"J-just leave me alone start from now," still sobbing as she continued, "I'm so tired..."
"But wait--" I paused as the line was being cut off. My mind was nothing but confused, perplexed. The way she cried had had my heart shattered into thousand of pieces, as if being penetrated by a sword. What does she mean? I thought to myself, what have I done wrong? Thunder striked like a fork and the rain began to accelerate. I tried a number of times calling her, but I failed, and that was the end for both of us, without an explanation, without knowing the reason why....

Mother's day is just around the corner... What shall I do? I thought to myself... Thinking, thinking hard, thinking harder.... Aha!! Here's my final plan, baking~ WAHAHAHA!! [evil laugh] Lol><

Ingredients:
A
125g butter
150g soft brown sugar

B
180g plain flour
20g cocoa powder
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp baking soda

C
1 egg- grade A [beaten]
1/2 tsp vanilla essence

D
3 egg white
120g icing sugar
50g caster sugar

To Melvin:

"Melvin koko, when are you coming back? When can you bring my sis and I to watch movie with tai tai and ling jie jie like old days? I really miss those days, especially when I see my friends hanging out with their cousins... I miss those laughter and fun we had together and I want it to happen again... I wanna hang out with you guys...><"

Natalie~ the evil one
Nicole~ the cute one
Natasha~ the innocent one...

C'mon, it's just a day spending time with them shopping in Pavilion, alone... Plus, they are just kids!! But everything just turned upside down!! Lol><

"Auntie", that's what their father, Uncle CHRISTINE will call us, "Take good care of them, especially Natasha... she loves to run..." but unfortunately enough, my sis and I ended up running and chasing after them...><

Imagine you were entangled, being pulled by two kids, backward, and another one kept hitting your butt like nobody's bussiness...>< That's just, I don't know how describe them... Cute but evil, playful but rough... "Attack!!" shouted Nicole, as she ambushed me and hit my butt, as usual, leaving me falling, lying flat on the floor, with people staring at me... I swear, it wasn't my fault!!

I didn't even have peace after coming out from the toilet... After washing my hands, I accidentally splashed water on Natalie... Oops, I forgot, she's the evil one! And there was her evil looking, penetrating, monsterous eyes gazing at me... Oh no, she's definitely gonna take her revenge, I thought to myself, and I was right!! She was going to, but I ran before she could get me... And guess what? I ran as fast as my legs can carry me as was being chased, like cat and mouse, by the evil one until my sis had to grab the hold of her... Thank god that my sis was there to help me!! Pheww~><

Natasha was the youngest and also the sweetest among her sisters, except that she's so restless that I had to run with her up and down the escalator.... "Jump on the white tiles," said Natasha, "If not you lose..." so, I had to jump and hop with her, just like what I did when I was at her age... I was so exhausted and yet, she was still that energetic... Aaawww, how cute!!^^

Well, that's all about the 3Ns~

Meet the Pussycat dolls:-

~ Nicole Scherzinger
~ Melody Thornton
~ Ashley Roberts
~ Kimberly Wyatt
~ Jessica Sutta

26th April

2nd day of the 1st aid competition:-
1. Home nursing
2. Short case

Great, my first time waking up at 4 in the morning... This is so suffering!!><

The home nursing was a total havoc, cuz I had no inkling of how and what to do!! I was doing things with trembling hands as I was lack of confidence and faith!! "God, help me", I prayed... But thank god Li Chih was always there to tell us jokes when we were being quarantined and gave us all the encouragement we needed...^^

Thank god that I was fully alert for short case, despite the make up of the open fracture, as in the bone protrude out from the skin, and other injuries... They looked so real and scary at the same time!! Well, I was in-charged in calling the ambulance and checking the lower limbs with No.4, who is Pik Yin... Everything seemed to be on my finger tips except that I was having problems with the stretcher... How in the world do you get this thing right? I thought to myself, it's damn freaking hard!!

Everything seemed to pass so fast that it was finally over, which is 5pm... And the result was out, we had lost... But it doesn't matter, I'm satisfied and happy with myself... I've won!! I've achieved my greatest victory ever... I knew I'd passed god's test, I knew it!!

25th April

1st day of the competition:-
1. Uniform Inspection
2. Marching

I was dressed in my hard collar, buttoned uniform to school with a big black rubbish bag, [actually, it's my st john full U for the uniform inspection]... I thought everything was going smoothly, until my team manager, Li Chih checked my uniform... Oh no, my mom had ironed it wrongly!! Oh god, this is so not good, but thank god that I'm not the only 1, so the entire team, 12 of us had to go to ban keng's house to get things right...><

At Ban Keng's house...
We were taught to tie shoe laces, yea you heard me, SHOE LACES... Brian had to wash our uniform to get rid of stains and as for Li Chih, she helped us with our hair as we had to make sure that our hair is 100% neat and tidy, thus we had to wash our hair and redo it!! Our hair is all combed up with 'gallons' of gels and hairspray... And you will never believe when I say that we girls turned up to have the most ugliest and horrible hairstyles in the entire world!!><

At Chong Hua...
That's where the competition was held... There were 18 team and by just drawing lot, it's like the most 'fortunate' day ever for us... Guess what? We got the last, which is NCP3... Sweat~><

"Ke Ke Jie Jie", called my neighbour as she ran towards me... Oh no, not now... Not at a moment like this, but I'm glad that she came looking for me in this gigantic school... And within a minute, the competition started, so we had to fall in under the blazing sun... We were the NCP3 group, and together we had to stand under the sun for approximately 1 hour, which was the longest time compared to other teams... Lol><

Well, same goes for marching... We had to wait, wait, and wait.... The worst part was, we were quarantined in a so-called quarantine room... Other than that, everthing went well and the 1st day of competition ends at 7pm... So tired...><

Hour of Uniform Inspection...><

I could not supress the frustration in me any longer, and I ended up bursting into tears, when I was supposed to change for the stupid practice...

Not noticing where I was, I heard a familiar voice asking me, "Why are you crying?"... I turned around, and saw my principle standing behind of me... And that was when I was brought into the principle's room...

I told her my problems and this was what she said:

"If I were you, I wouldn't quit... This is a training ground which God is training your EQ... You must not give up but to overcome your feelings... Let everything go and go for your practice with an open heart... And once the competition is over, it will be your greatest victory..."

I wonder...

What if I'm depressed?
Will you be there for me?
What if I'm bored?
Will you make me happy?
What if I fail?
Will you still want to be my friend?
What if I'm the one who will be there for you when you are feelin' blue?
Will you appreciate me?
What if I need you?
Will you help me?
What if we depart?
Will we still be friends?
What if I break your heart?
Will you ever forgive me?
What if I change?
Will you accept me for who I am?
What if I'm gone?
Will you miss me?
What if.....

I'm not sure and don't even know who I am anymore...><

I was lying on my bed with my blanket on, staring blankly at the ceiling, reminiscing about the past... My past wasn't perfect, rather, it's a mixture of all kinds of feelings... Failure, success, bitterness, sadness, happiness, surprise, anxious, melancholy, worries etc. etc... I've tried and taste them all, so what could hurt me more? Even there was one time my heart was penetrated with frustration, leaving it to bleed and scars were all over it!! Life seems so complicated, so so complicated...><

I then reminisced about an incident which is happening right now, something between ZY and I... Anger and frustration began to fill in every gap of my nerves, every cavity of my body... What have I done wrong? I think to myself... Why am i being treated like this? Why?><

Tears began to weld in my eyes, and instictively I prayed, "I'm sorry God, I don't know who I am anymore, I don't behave like you, and I just can't help it... God, help me..." And within a minute, I began to hear something spiritually from my heart, saying:-

"KJ, you don't want to make the same mistake like what you did to your lovely bro, do you?"
"You told her that you wouldn't ignore her, but where have your words gone to?"
"KJ, you have tolerated her for 4 months, why not tolerate for 2 more years?"
"Forgive her, and I'll forgive you..."
"She's your brother too..."

The anger in me subsided... What am I supposed to do now? What have I turned to? Oh god, I thank You that you have spoken to me, I know it's You!! Father Lord Jesus, help me, I'm so lost... L-O-S-T!!><

Chan Yen Ping

I'm have to admit that i'm totally in love with Ciara... Check out her moves!! She's the best!!^^

I know my guardian angel is somewhere near me, but where? And most importantly, who?

"10 more mintues..."

Chemistry, Biology, Physics, History etc. etc... These questions are damn freaking hard!! How in the world can i finish them in just 10 minutes? 10 minutes = 600 seconds, i know that's a lot of time, but still!!

"Alright students, you have 10 minutes more..." Great, i thought to myself, time is up and i still have 2 questions blank, for chemistry... How 'great'!! I'm so gonna fail chemistry... It's the only paper i didn't manage to finish!! I was so desperate on snatching my test paper back from the teacher to finish up those unanswered questions, but what choice do i have? Time is up!!!

What is the use of the calender during the time of Dinasti Shang? and that's one of the History question containing 2 marks... What in the world? Calender? I thought it's for looking at the day or date... What's it used during that ancient time? Cracking my head, yet i still couldn't get the answer!! What am i going to do? Haix~ It's just so yesterday... It's His-Story!!

"Time's up, pens down..." announced the teacher
"Shit!!!" i responded

Oh no, not good, as everyone in the class was staring at me... I didn't know why i responded that way... I should have responded like "What, it's time already?" or "Oh my god!!" but why this? This is so humilating, with all eyes staring at me!!><

Thank god that this is just my first exam... But hopefully i will get to pass all the subjects this time... Sweat~

“Ke Juin…”

I span to look around, for someone was holding my arm…

“Ke Juin, do you still recognize me?”

I looked at her, and by looking at her, I can see how desperate of her wanting me to recognize her, yet I failed to… I couldn’t think of anything at that moment… I tried to recall, but I still didn’t know who she was, not even a vivid memory in my mind… Who is she? I thought to myself… Who?

“I’m sorry,” finally I gave up, “Who are you?”

Still grabbing my arm, “Are you sure you couldn’t recognize me?” she asked…
I glanced at my friend who accompanied me to the restroom, and I can see that she was no longer patient… she wanted to go back to class!!

“No…” shaking my head… and again, I asked, “Who are you?”

Knowing that I had given up on speculating who she was, finally she said “I’m Xue Er, remember? I’m the one living next to Sze Mei, and also your ex classmate!!”

I finally recalled who she was... She was the friend of mine who was in the same uniform body, PBSM as I was… She was the one who taught me about the history of PBSM, how to tie the reef knot, and sat with me most of the time!! She was one of my good friends… How can I forget about her? Oh my god, all the time I thought I would never see her again, and now she’s just right in front of me, right here right now!!

“Xue Er? Is that really you” I asked incredulously, I couldn’t believe my eyes… Really!! She has changed so much!! I remembered that last time she was shorter than me, slightly short and stout… but now she’s about the same height as I am, and slim!! Like Shin Erl [also my ex classmate]… she has grown more beautiful now, so much different from last time… Oh my god, it’s really her!!

“I’ve just transferred to this school a month ago…” she told me, but I wasn’t really listening to what she said, I was too shock… Instinctively I asked “What class are you in now anyway?” and 4L was the answer…

“Alright…” that’s all I could say, and walked away, as my friend was already impatient… very impatient…

Xue Er, it is you… I’ve finally met you again…

KJ, stay strong...

Finally, it was sports day, but i still wasn't feeling really well, still having a bad flu, but i had to go on... I woke up at 5 in the morning, for i had to go to school by 6 for practise marching... This is insanity, i thought to myself, but what other choice do i have? Today is the big day!!

"Awas, masuk baris!!" and as usual, we fall in after our footdrill coordinator had given us the command... I have no inkling why i was chosen to be in the first line, but it was totally fine with me, i think it was because our footdrill coordinator had decided to proceed with the formation we did during practise...

The time had finally arrived, and the marching bagan. I was absent-minded at first, for i kept forgetting to check line, but later on i was excelled in it...^^ Thank god that Pn Joginder and Sze Mei's dad didn't drag their speeches, I know i can do it, i thought to myself... But i was so wrong, so wrong...

I began to feel dizzy, again... So i ended up squatting on the ground. "Stand up, KJ, you can do it!!" My inner voice was trying to give me encouragement, and i stood up... However, i couldn't take the stand, and i squatted down again... Is this all the strength i have? I thought, should i give up? But then, i felt someone was holding my arm... i tried to look, but i couldn't have a clear sight... All i know is that she's one of the first aid team... "Do you want to fall out?" she asked... I didn't know what to do at that time, but instinctively i shook my head...

"She doesn't want to fall out..." I heard one of my seniors said... And so she just gave me a sweet and some oil to apply on... I was touched!! "KJ, your lovely bro and your st john teammates need you... Stand up KJ, stand up now!!" and again, with all my strength, i managed to stand up and proceed till the end of the marching!!^^

I took as much rest as i could after marching, i was so exhausted... "KJ, are you alright?", "KJ, i'm so proud of you... You manage to proceed till the end!!", "Ari, KJ stood up, she has great spirit!" etc.. etc... I was like so proud of myself after hearing what my friends had said... You did it KJ, you did it...

It was time when we had to fall in again, and this time, it would be the final announcement of who will be the champian of the footdrill competition... I was so excited until i heard my friend saying "PBSM is the winner..." I was so disappointed... " Dai ah ko, i'm so sorry... I've done my best but i still couldn't fulfill your dream...", yet i know that somewhere inside of me, i haven't given up yet... I haven't!!

"The winner in the footdrill competition for the year 2009 is.... ST JOHN AMBULANCE!!!!"
What? I can hardly believe my ears!! We've won!! And i began to break down, i was wrong all the time, PBSM winning was just a rumour!! Where had my faith gone to? "Dai ah ko, I've won!!!" I whispered...

St John had won again!! Yeah~ However, the bad news is that we have to represent the school for another footdrill competition... Haix~

"Everyone, thank you KJ for sacrificing so much for st john, she fainted so many times, and yet she stood up... She was the only one who cried when we won, that means she had contributed a lot for st john, so give her a big clap...." I was speechless, it was my fisrt time receiving ovations form my st john teammates... i was appreciated!!^^

"Thank god for everything you have done for me, it's my greatest victory ever... In Jesus' name, Amen!!"

5th of March...
I was on my way back to my classroom and that was when i met my yi ah ko...

"Hey, how are you?" she asked "do you want some sweets?"

She drew out a packet of sweets from her pocket, she asked "why didn't you fall out? Why are you so stubborn?" I made no reply, but from looking at her, i can sense her extreme concern for me... But, what can i say? Tell her that i did this for my lovely bro? Yes, but... How can i put them into words? So i chose to remain silent...

"I'm really sad when you didn't want to fall out..." i was still silent, not knowing what to say... Instead, i took the packet of sweets from her... "thank you, yi ah ko..." and i went back to my classroom...

Well, i didn't really go back to my classroom, instead, i went to a classroom which no students were there, to cool myself down... i clenched my fist to suppress my emotion, but i broke down instead... How can i break my bro's heart? How can i let my bro to be so concerned of me? and if i really did fall out? how can i achieve my dream? Nobody can ever understand me- NOBODY!!

6th of March...
It was the day before sports day, and i was having a cold and fever... Totally suffering!! My yi ah ko saw me and said "Get someone to replace your place...". "NO, i don't want to! i can do it!!!" i interrupted... And that was when she raised her voice to me "Why are you so stubborn??"... I looked away from her, i didn't blame her for doing that, that's because i know that she cares for me... And i know that she's worried for me....

During recess, i was so tired... And that was when my Samko sat right opposite of me...

"Why do you come to school?" she asked
"I didn't tell my mom that i was sicked..."
"You haven't tell me why you strive in marching..."

As usual, i made no reply... Although she's the first person someone i would want to tell my problems to... I just can't tell, can I? Sometimes i'm just wondering, why can't my seniors and my friends give me the support that i need in continuing what i believe in? Am i the kind of person who will do things without any explicable reasons? Why? Why can't i have a lil' support from you guys?><

"St john always no. 1!!"
"Hope u can try yr best n st john get no. 1.^^"
"I miss st john so much"....

I know that winning in the St John footdrill competition is my lovely bro's dream, although she is not studying in this school anymore...

5th of March... It was the day where the briefing is hold, and doing the best I can is my only dream, for it's my lovely bro's dream, and I want to do it for god too!! But, my intuitive feeling forwarned me of an eventuality, and that time i was having a very bad cramp on the lower part of my stomach...

"Ask someone to replace you, sice you are feeling unwell..." suggestion one of my friends
"No, i have to do this to acheive my dream... and i'm fine, don't worry about me, thanks..." i replied with a smile...

"St John, fall in!!" and we all did as we were told... "god, help me to get through this..." i prayed, and everything was going great, till we were in the middle of the field... I was soaked with sweat as the blazing sun was on us, and all of a sudden my sight was blur, sweat kept flowing from my forehead, and then, i just went blacked out...><

I had Hobson's choice but to squat down, but i haven't had the thought of giving up yet... My seniors were very worried of me... "KJ, are you alright?", "Where are the first aid team? what's taking them so long?", "KJ, sit down now!!"....

I almost gave up at that time, until there was an inner voice in me, saying "KJ, you promise yourself that you want to do your best for your lovely bro and for you Father Lord... Where have your words gone to? If you give up now, you wouldn't have any satisfaction... KJ, stand up now! It's now or never!!" And i felt an entirely new strength in me, giving me strength to stand up... "thank god" i prayed... And when the arrival of the first aidteam, they tried to convinve me to fall out...

"KJ, fall out now!"
"No, i can do this!!" i asserted
Holding my arm, "KJ, listen to me... don't force yourself, fall out now!!"
"Let go of me, i can do this!!" i asserted even more...

And that was how i remained in the team... i was given some sweets and a mouth full of water to refresh myslef, and i felt good!! And i did great during the second briefing... I did it!!^^ After the entire briefing was over, i was totally exhausted!! I felt like collapsing, but i forced myslef not to... Well, all i can do now is to pray for the on sports day...

"Push.. Push harder...."><

Oh my god, what a day!! Imagine 2 young girls pushing a 4 X 4 Jeep Wrangler car in the middle of the road bare-footed, causing traffic jam, although it was just around the neighbourhood... And that 2 young girls would be my sister and of course, me...><

The plausiblity to say that the road had absorbed heat from the sun-drenched afternoon, it must be! That's because it was burning hot, till i almost get blisters beneath my foot!! I felt really good to walk on the road bare-footed at first, but after a while i couldn't take the heat, not even my sis could... "Ching, look over there!! Tiles!! " and the both of us ran onto the tiles to cool our feet, but that didn't work either...

"What now?" asked my sis...
"What else? Run home!!!" and that was the only answer i could think of...

And so the both of us ran home as fast as possible, and my neighbours, Chung Mae and her family, were staring at the both of us... Lol>< After we washed our feet with water, we wore our slippers back to the Jeep Wrangler but this time, we sat in our dad's another 4 X 4 car [storm]... Smart, right?

My dad drew out some kind of wire used for jumpstarting the car... And this was the fun part, after my dad had connected both his 4 X 4 vehicles with that wire thingy, i was in-charged on stepping on the accelerator to transmit "energy" from the Storm to the Jeep Wrangler... "Step on it!!"... And within a minute, the car engine was able to restart!! "thank god... "

Well, what can i say? It was a really good experience... Really!!^^