My X-classmate  

Posted by Ker Jean

It had been 3 years I didn't see her... 3 years...

This is so not happening, I thought to myself... I'm, actually meeting her again... She still looks the same as the time during primary... Her voice, her smile are still so sweet that nothing could possibly compare to hers... I'm so totally glad to see her!! Really=]

But there was one thing I could not understand was that she didn't behave like she used to, perhaps because she respects me as a friend... She told me she feared that I would speak English in which she could not comprehend, and feared that we might be in a no talking term... She feared that I would be bored with some of her friends hanging out together with, and judging by her look, I can see that she was trying the best she can to keep me companied... But why? Why did she have to do all this for me? Didn't she know that it makes me depressed??

"Anyway, whatever changes you are going through, we will still be friends, close friends... It's a promise we make during primary, don't you remember?"

Bye  

Posted by Ker Jean

"Apek sudah berhenti..."

Whaatt?? My coach has resigned from his work? How can this be possible? This is so not happening... There are so much more that I haven't learnt from him, and now he... Haix~ How can this happen to me? Why?? I'm going to lose another good friend??

To my coach:
Thanks Apek, for coaching me on archery, and even rock climbing... These are the experiences not all people would have the chance to experience... You are the one who influences me to take up interest in archery, to be brave, to be more sporting... You told me that you would teach me how to play snooker the next time we meet... But I guess I wouldn't get the chance to learn from you anymore, would I?

We get to know each other in a very unique way, and I wouldn't forget that day... You introduced me to all your friends, and gave me a collection of arrows... We played bowling and had supper together after work... I'm really going to miss those days><

I don't know if we will have the chance to meet again... But I'll continue to practice on my aiming, which is my weakness... I will take a part time job in the archery section during the year end holiday and I know I'll soon be a pro after some intense training... I will be like you someday, Apek, and this I promise you...

Wishes  

Posted by Ker Jean

10th August 2009


HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to my
dai ah ko, Jia Shim=]

Resonant Past  

Posted by Ker Jean

"I would never want the past to repeat itself" I promised myself... Perhaps I was over confident, too confident that I did not realize that it happened again...

The incidence took place like centuries ago, but it entrenched in my mind so firmly that I could hardly forget about it... Even if I managed to, it wouldn't let the go of me... It just hurt so badly that I would not want to mention about it... I thought time could heal everything, but I guess not...

I'd experienced so much that not all people would have the opportunity to experience... I'd seen so much that you could possibly imagine... I'd learned so much that are apart from the school syllabus that helped me boost self- confident... But, if I could turn back time, I would let everything go... Cuz, I'd lose a friend><

Sometimes, it's better to remain as friends than being partner... But I took the wrong path being one of her team members... Disagreement occured, and in the end I hurt that friend of mine so badly that she cried quite a number of times [from what my friends had told me]... I broke the bridge that tied our friendship together, leaving a massive gap, and I allowed my emotions to take control over me... This should not be happening, but I guess it's too late to change now, is it?

How can??!  

Posted by Ker Jean

I know I'm never a good bro... I never am!! Although it has been a year hanging out with you, I still don't know when your birthday is, and even if I do, I don't know what to get you for your birthday!! I don't know what are the things you like and what are the things you don't... I don't know what to write when I am given a birthday card to write on... I'm such a pathetic, I know... How I wish I could just turn back time to get to know you better, if only I could have the chance... But I guess everything is too late now... Sorry dai ah ko~ FORGIVE ME><